HAPPY 90th BIRTHDAY!!!!
Today is what would have been my grampa's 90th birthday. I wish every single day that I would have had more time with him at an age when I would have appreciated the values and character he brought to the family. He was our "matriarch" - when he passed the family fell apart. There were four kids and two went one way and two went the other. There was a lot of deception that didn't need to be surrounded by his passing.
I still believe that everyday he teaches me something or is there in spirit to help me with my decisions and forgive me when I wrong. I was the closest of all his grandchildren to him and I to him. I used to spend everyday in the summer with him at the beach house walking the beach and collecting seashells and every storm in the winter I would go over and shovel his walk and driveway. I used to go over at the young age of 10 and help him with his bills (he wasn't very organized) and then as I got older and one of the last few memories I have with him was when I got my license. I used to take him grocery shopping and help him sign his name on his check since he couldn't see very well. I used to fight him every week on the need to get two gallons of vodka ... drinking was bad he needed to stop ... but what I finally realized was that at his age alcohol was sadly the only thing keeping him alive. At the same time it was the cause of his death as well.
His body shut down and his liver could no longer function and there were no more satisfactory places in his body for the dialysis machine to hook too.
While today is a cold, rainy and just plain dreary day I find myself thinking back of all the memories and the smile you used to always give regardless of the pain you felt and could never tell or show you how much I miss you. This morning I went to visit him in the driving rain and placed a single red rose and a seashell from his beach, Higgins Beach.
I LOVE YOU
RIP Joseph Leon Meserve
I still believe that everyday he teaches me something or is there in spirit to help me with my decisions and forgive me when I wrong. I was the closest of all his grandchildren to him and I to him. I used to spend everyday in the summer with him at the beach house walking the beach and collecting seashells and every storm in the winter I would go over and shovel his walk and driveway. I used to go over at the young age of 10 and help him with his bills (he wasn't very organized) and then as I got older and one of the last few memories I have with him was when I got my license. I used to take him grocery shopping and help him sign his name on his check since he couldn't see very well. I used to fight him every week on the need to get two gallons of vodka ... drinking was bad he needed to stop ... but what I finally realized was that at his age alcohol was sadly the only thing keeping him alive. At the same time it was the cause of his death as well.
His body shut down and his liver could no longer function and there were no more satisfactory places in his body for the dialysis machine to hook too.
While today is a cold, rainy and just plain dreary day I find myself thinking back of all the memories and the smile you used to always give regardless of the pain you felt and could never tell or show you how much I miss you. This morning I went to visit him in the driving rain and placed a single red rose and a seashell from his beach, Higgins Beach.
I LOVE YOU
RIP Joseph Leon Meserve
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