Stressed? Yeah I'm stressed...but no matter how stressed I am I am reminded that things could always be worse. I'm reminded that every time I look into the eyes of one of my good friends or hear her voice...becuase for her - it's worse. Prayers are uplifted everyday for a good results on the testing. We will know more next week we all hope.
As for me...I struggle daily with my life and where I want it to head and what I want it to do....I just don't know. That drives me crazy too. One day Jason and I are great and making plans for the future and the next day it's like a switch and he forgets that we're in it together...that I'm still here...I don't know I guess it's the guy versus girl thing but it really sucks when I need him and he's not here or to distant in his own world to care. It leaves me feeling abandoned and alone and I take it personal even though he tells me to not.
I wish I could just swim and keep my head above water in the sea of debt...I'm hoping that now that racing is slowing down I'll have a bit more money in my pocket and hopefully if we get to go to NC some decisions are made so I can decide what I need to do...it's the not knowing that drives me crazy!
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