Friday, July 31, 2009

Loving someone you can't have...

How does it happen? When does it happen? How do you stop it? How do you handle it if you can't?

To love someone is a very real emotion. To love someone without full understanding why is worse. Loving someone without understanding while watching them live a life that doesn't include you is worse still...

I have no idea what to do to...none at all =(
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Monday, July 27, 2009

Blogger and Blackberry

Finally after a few months I have gotten my blackberry hooked up to my blog. Not that anyone really reads it but at least this way when I'm bored I have a place to write now.

There is so much going on right now in my head I wish I had an easy way to filter it all out...but that just takes time and patience I suppose. I just wish mostly that I could get a good nights sleep and wake up feeling refreshed and ready to go...I don't remember the last time I felt that way. It would probably help to get my meds back on track lol

Today I attended my great aunts memorial service and while it was long ... Very long there were some very nice things said and things learned. She always believed that the 2 words that needed to be remembered most in life were "stay close" and with that I will forever remember. I will stay close in the faith and how I choose to celebrate it and ill stay close to the memories of my relationship with her and the time I spent with her growing up. But most of all I will remember to stay close to my own heart. The one part of me that I have control over. The one part of me that I need to remember is mine and only I have the power to give or receive its contents...



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